Update to Wednesday

Friday, November 7, 2008

After having a mental, physical, and spiritual breakdown on Wednesday (Wow, really? All three?!) , I am in a much better state. I called Aaron after writing the previous post to talk to him about what was going on in my head. He has always been the calm and logical one when I am going crazy. He also knows how to speak to me when I am worried and has a way of reassuring me everything will be fine. 

First we talked politics. He said that he doesn't think Obama will be as terrible as I think he will be. Aaron also said that the system we have in place is in place to keep one person from having total control, and hopes that it will serve this purpose during this administration. We talked about past presidents and how some are considered some of the worst leaders. And we talked about how he could be one of the best. It does seem as if we are due for another great president. 

Aaron and I then started talking about when Jesus was coming back and some of my fears wrapped around that topic. He said that he didn't think that me wanting to live life and have children, etc. was a bad thing. He said that it was probably normal as Life is a gift from God Himself. Aaron did say that spending all my time fearful of not living out my life was not what God wanted for me. (Which he was very right to say.) 

We also talked about this in the context of our relationship. Aaron and I got together under some pretty unusual circumstances to say the least. We have survived our senior year of high school, the first two years of college in a long distance relationship, and I was accepted into LMU so we could spend the last two years of college together. Aaron said he thinks God has a lot in store for us to have made it this far and not have broken up. I think so too. 

I am very thankful to be where I am in life. I am also very grateful to have had the experiences I have had the past few years. I know that it has made me smarter and shaped the person I am today.